You have no idea how hard it is for me to hold back.
Well.
I’m not fucking getting into this.
I dont want to fight.
You want to know the serious stuff going on right now?
I might have breast cancer
I have costo chondritus
I have chronic fatigue
I have fibro myalgia
I am extremly depressed and wont take my meds
My biolgical mother just died
( and i STILL dont know my father )
My boyfriend cheated on me
My big brother is in the hospital
My other big brother ( who just loves to fucking control my life) Is coming home.
I guess that sums most of it up.
I still love you Kerri Elizabeth Benigar.
Just…pay more attention sometimes.
Well it's messed up. But funny.
God gave a black baby wings, and the black baby said “so im an angel now?” and god said nah nigga you a bat!
should i shower tonight? yes.
do i feel like showering tonight? no.
will i shower tonight?
probably not.
Glass house.
My mind collapses beneath your words,
And tears from the seams.
Nothing is ever like my dreams.
Sounds that echo on these naked walls.
That free fall.
Into my ears where i hear it all.
Hiding within my own self doubt.
And when i open my mouth,
There seems to be no way out.
This house is not a home.
Surrounded by everyone yet so alone.
This plan was not my own.
I’m in a glass house and we’re throwin’ stones.
And these pages gently weep,
For the pain i keep.
The voices wont let me sleep.
Standing so close to the door.
Cause i cant take it anymore.
But then i hit the floor.
It seems i’ve been decieved.
By the ones i love as they leave.
I can hardly breathe.
Don’t lose your dinosaur.
